Why do you, with your small hands,try to carry all these wounds on your back?
It isn't for any one person's sake, please don't lose sight of that
Why am I, while hesitating,unable to escape?
What I hope for is the sun, the sun to light the way...
Find the way, though in this glowing universe our hands can't quite reach
We depend on only our resounding love
Because at the end of the path we've traveled we'll find the light
You'll find the way
You said, "I had a long dream...
It was a very sad dream,
but what I saw wasn't one bit clouded..."
I said, "It's okay to cry,because I'll stay by your side no matter what."
What I wish for is a hand, a hand to reach up to me...
Find the way
Even without words, even without wings to fly on
As long as we stand our ground in the wind
Even if we're the first ones afflicted with this pain...
Giving an answer surely isn't everything
I'll be patient, it's all right, and so are you...
Find the way
Though in this glowing cosmos our hands can't quite reach
We depend on only our resounding love
Because at the end of the path we've traveled we'll find the light
Find the way
Even without words, even without wings to fly on
As long as we stand our ground in the wind
At the end of the path we've traveled we finally saw the light...
You'll find the way
It's been a long time since I updated in Xanga...
Today's a special day - - > ?? so i decide to update in this..
im so curious.. about you right now. what are you doing? what are you thinking? what are you saying?
- i should be studying my physics -
i want to know.. why can't you fall in love with someone that isnt in your standards?
or.. have you already? but i cannot tell can i..
and even if you did.. its not about being a perfect girl, but being the best girl that you can possibly have
i will do what i need to.. in order to make me seem closer to that perfect girl of yours...
i shouldnt think these thoughts right!? the law of attraction.. if you focus on the negative things, they will come to you
so as long as i concentrate on the fact that you like me back.. you will? i highly doubt that too..
hmm maybe its because i doubt the theory.. haha xD <- im going to have to test that out..
but lets make it over a course of.. 1 month; hoping for an .. item? :S so ill spend like 15 - 30 minutes everyday focusing on that one thing
anyways, i always felt that the theory of "the more you want something, the hardest it is to attain"
thats why i dont like the law of attraction.. you basically set up expectations and you expect them to be met
and if they dont, you'll just be more upset over something wouldnt you?
if you expected someone to like you.. that would sound morally wrong too wouldnt it? to expect an emotion back
even if it was not truthful to you. as long as you get it, you are happy?
when you want more of something, its harder to get because you're basically overthinking, overlooking the whole situation
sometimes, if you sit back and relax, youll find greater things head your way
for example, you want desperately to talk to a boy on msn. but if you said to yourself, if he wants to talk to you, he will talk first
and then he does, then wouldnt that feel much better? here, youre not exactly expecting him to do it are you? nor do you want it so badly that you attract it
just sit back, relax, and think about the little things that can spice up your life
you can't aways have an automatic high
you have to find the way
the way to the light, the love, to the little things that can make you happy
don't expect too much out of life, but when life give you lemons, throw a lemon party and invite me;; i make a great lemonade.
so please dont expect so much out of me. i'll be the best i can for you, and i hope you do the same for me somethings, you cannot say face to face, but somethings can be said merely by the heart someone's actions, always think of them as more than what they did, but careful not to overlook it and cause yourself misery...
i wonder how long it will take until i grow my hair out long again..
livi says around one year.. i think so too.. hmmm.. i hope by december.. its going to be at least medium long length.. :3 yay.. <3 then i can go to pmall and get it cut.. <- recommended stylist upstairs? :S never heard of it though.. ill go try it out :3
today i recieved mail! well it was from my dad's highschool best buddy i got a present too! it was a voodoo doll! i love those things.. remember.. real ones are made in TAIWAN D< anyways, it was a little angel.. and i do need protection.. in the description, you ask yourself "why does this shit happen to me?" now i have this just in case i run into a horrible case. their example was tripping and falling straight on my face.. well .. im going to put it in my bag for good luck both my heart stealer and my little angel... but my heart stealer is okay for ek.. =) i never been so infatuated <- ? over a guy before.. i always said oh yeah they're "THE ONE" but.. i donno.. youre liek the only that i'm scared i wont be able to match up to you... cause i really care what you think.. and i love you.. if only i could say that to your face now.. but i would rather save a friendship then to spark a new relationship and have it fail...
even though i would want more.. whats so bad about us right now.. this is like a test.. by the end of it.. if i still love you.. if i miss you more and more everyday i will know.. for sure that i have fallen so deep for you.. that i cannot crawl back out.. <3
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